Estrella

: THE RAWHIDE
: Arizona Nights

The honeymoon developed and the necessary adjustments took place. The

latter Senor Johnson had not foreseen; and yet, when the necessity for

them arose, he acknowledged them right and proper.



"Course she don't want to ride over to Circle I with us," he informed

his confidant, Jed Parker. "It's a long ride, and she ain't used to

riding yet. Trouble is I've been thinking of doing things with her

just as
f she was a man. Women are different. They likes different

things."



This second idea gradually overlaid the first in Senor Johnson's mind.

Estrella showed little aptitude or interest in the rougher side of

life. Her husband's statement as to her being still unused to riding

was distinctly a euphemism. Estrella never arrived at the point of

feeling safe on a horse. In time she gave up trying, and the sorrel

drifted back to cow-punching. The range work she never understood.



As a spectacle it imposed itself on her interest for a week; but since

she could discover no real and vital concern in the welfare of cows,

soon the mere outward show became an old story. Estrella's sleek

nature avoided instinctively all that interfered with bodily

well-being. When she was cool and well-fed and not thirsty, and

surrounded by a proper degree of feminine daintiness, then she was

ready to amuse herself. But she could not understand the desirability

of those pleasures for which a certain price in discomfort must be

paid. As for firearms, she confessed herself frankly afraid of them.

That was the point at which her intimacy with them stopped.



The natural level to which these waters fell is easily seen. Quite

simply, the Senor found that a wife does not enter fully into her

husband's workaday life. The dreams he had dreamed did not come true.



This was at first a disappointment to him, of course, but the

disappointment did not last. Senor Johnson was a man of sense, and he

easily modified his first scheme of married life.



"She'd get sick of it, and I'd get sick of it," he formulated his new

philosophy. "Now I got something to come back to, somebody to look

forward to. And it's a WOMAN; it ain't one of these darn gangle-leg

cowgirls. The great thing is to feel you BELONG to someone; and that

someone nice and cool and fresh and purty is waitin' for you when you

come in tired. It beats that other little old idee of mine slick as a

gun barrel."



So, during this, the busy season of the range riding, immediately

before the great fall round-ups, Senor Johnson rode abroad all day, and

returned to his own hearth as many evenings of the week as he could.

Estrella always saw him coming and stood in the doorway to greet him.

He kicked off his spurs, washed and dusted himself, and spent the

evening with his wife. He liked the sound of exactly that phrase, and

was fond of repeating it to himself in a variety of connections.



"When I get in I'll spend the evening with my wife." "If I don't ride

over to Circle I, I'll spend the evening with my wife," and so on. He

had a good deal to tell her of the day's discoveries, the state of the

range, and the condition of the cattle. To all of this she listened at

least with patience. Senor Johnson, like most men who have long

delayed marriage, was self-centred without knowing it. His interest in

his mate had to do with her personality rather than with her doings.



"What you do with yourself all day to-day?" he occasionally inquired.



"Oh, there's lots to do," she would answer, a trifle listlessly; and

this reply always seemed quite to satisfy his interest in the subject.



Senor Johnson, with a curiously instant transformation often to be

observed among the adventurous, settled luxuriously into the state of

being a married man. Its smallest details gave him distinct and

separate sensations of pleasure.



"I plumb likes it all," he said. "I likes havin' interest in some fool

geranium plant, and I likes worryin' about the screen doors and all the

rest of the plumb foolishness. It does me good. It feels like

stretchin' your legs in front of a good warm fire."



The centre, the compelling influence of this new state of affairs, was

undoubtedly Estrella, and yet it is equally to be doubted whether she

stood for more than the suggestion. Senor Johnson conducted his entire

life with reference to his wife. His waking hours were concerned only

with the thought of her, his every act revolved in its orbit controlled

by her influence. Nevertheless she, as an individual human being, had

little to do with it. Senor Johnson referred his life to a state of

affairs he had himself invented and which he called the married state,

and to a woman whose attitude he had himself determined upon and whom

he designated as his wife. The actual state of affairs--whatever it

might be--he did not see; and the actual woman supplied merely the

material medium necessary to the reality of his idea. Whether

Estrella's eyes were interested or bored, bright or dull, alert or

abstracted, contented or afraid, Senor Johnson could not have told you.

He might have replied promptly enough--that they were happy and loving.

That is the way Senor Johnson conceived a wife's eyes.



The routine of life, then, soon settled. After breakfast the Senor

insisted that his wife accompany him on a short tour of inspection. "A

little pasear," he called it, "just to get set for the day." Then his

horse was brought, and he rode away on whatever business called him.

Like a true son of the alkali, he took no lunch with him, nor expected

his horse to feed until his return. This was an hour before sunset.

The evening passed as has been described. It was all very simple.



When the business hung close to the ranch house--as in the bronco

busting, the rebranding of bought cattle, and the like--he was able to

share his wife's day. Estrella conducted herself dreamily, with a slow

smile for him when his actual presence insisted on her attention. She

seemed much given to staring out over the desert. Senor Johnson,

appreciatively, thought he could understand this. Again, she gave much

leisure to rocking back and forth on the low, wide veranda, her hands

idle, her eyes vacant, her lips dumb. Susie O'Toole had early proved

incompatible and had gone.



"A nice, contented, home sort of a woman," said Senor Johnson.



One thing alone besides the deserts on which she never seemed tired of

looking, fascinated her. Whenever a beef was killed for the uses of

the ranch, she commanded strips of the green skin. Then, like a child,

she bound them and sewed them and nailed them to substances

particularly susceptible to their constricting power. She choked the

necks of green gourds, she indented the tender bark of cottonwood

shoots, she expended an apparently exhaustless ingenuity on the

fabrication of mechanical devices whose principle answered to the

pulling of the drying rawhide. And always along the adobe fence could

be seen a long row of potatoes bound in skin, some of them fresh and

smooth and round; some sweating in the agony of squeezing; some

wrinkled and dry and little, the last drops of life tortured out of

them. Senor Johnson laughed good-humouredly at these toys, puzzled to

explain their fascination for his wife.



"They're sure an amusing enough contraption honey," said he, "but what

makes you stand out there in the hot sun staring at them that way?

It's cooler on the porch."



"I don't know," said Estrella, helplessly, turning her slow, vacant

gaze on him. Suddenly she shivered in a strong physical revulsion. "I

don't know!" she cried with passion.



After they had been married about a month Senor Johnson found it

necessary to drive into Willets.



"How would you like to go, too, and buy some duds?" he asked Estrella.



"Oh!" she cried strangely. "When?"



"Day after tomorrow."



The trip decided, her entire attitude changed. The vacancy of her gaze

lifted; her movements quickened; she left off staring at the desert,

and her rawhide toys were neglected. Before starting, Senor Johnson

gave her a check book. He explained that there were no banks in

Willets, but that Goodrich, the storekeeper, would honour her signature.



"Buy what you want to, honey," said he. "Tear her wide open. I'm good

for it."



"How much can I draw?" she asked, smiling.



"As much as you want to," he replied with emphasis.



"Take care"--she poised before him with the check book extended--"I may

draw--I might draw fifty thousand dollars."



"Not out of Goodrich," he grinned; "you'd bust the game. But hold him

up for the limit, anyway."



He chuckled aloud, pleased at the rare, bird-like coquetry of the

woman. They drove to Willets. It took them two days to go and two

days to return. Estrella went through the town in a cyclone burst of

enthusiasm, saw everything, bought everything, exhausted everything in

two hours. Willets was not a large place. On her return to the ranch

she sat down at once in the rocking-chair on the veranda. Her hands

fell into her lap. She stared out over the desert.



Senor Johnson stole up behind her, clumsy as a playful bear. His eyes

followed the direction of hers to where a cloud shadow lay across the

slope, heavy, palpable, untransparent, like a blotch of ink.



"Pretty, isn't it, honey?" said he. "Glad to get back?"



She smiled at him her vacant, slow smile.



"Here's my check book," she said; "put it away for me. I'm through

with it."



"I'll put it in my desk," said he. "It's in the left-hand cubbyhole,"

he called from inside.



"Very well," she replied.



He stood in the doorway, looking fondly at her unconscious shoulders

and the pose of her blonde head thrown back against the high

rocking-chair.



"That's the sort of a woman, after all," said Senor Johnson. "No blame

fuss about her."



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