Security

: Security

If you let a man learn, and study, and work--and clamp

a lid on so that nothing he takes into his mind can be

let out--one way or another he'll blow a safety valve!







Suddenly Collins snapped the pencil between his fingers and hurled the

pieces across the lab, where they clattered, rolled from the bench to

the floor, and were still. For a moment he sat leaning against the desk,
br /> his hands trembling. He wasn't sure just when the last straw had been

added, but he was sure that he had had enough. The restrictions, red

tape, security measures of these government laboratories seemed to

close in on his mind in boiling, chaotic waves of frustration. What

was the good of his work, all this great installation, all the gleaming

expensive equipment in the lab around him? He was alone. None of them

seemed to share his problem, the unctuous, always correct Gordon, the

easy-mannered, unbearable Mason, all of them gave him a feeling of

actual physical sickness.



Gardner's "Nucleonics and Nuclear Problems" lay open on the desk before

him, but he looked instead beyond through the clear curving glass windows

toward the sweep of green hills and darkening sky and the shadows of the

lower forests that gave Fair Oaks its name. Beside him unfinished lay the

summaries of the day's experiments, and the unorganized, hurriedly jotted

notes for tomorrow's work. The old intellectual alertness was gone.

Delight in changing theory, in careful experimentation no longer sprang

from his work and were a part of it. There was a dull, indefinable aching

in his head and a dry, dissatisfied sensation in his mouth.



Along the ordered walks below his laboratory windows workers and

technicians streamed toward the gates, checking out for the day through

the usual mass of red tape, passes, and Geiger tests. Lights were

flicking on in the long East Wing Dormitory across the quadrangle, and

the mess hall, where he had recently eaten a tasteless supper, was

lighted.



Shortly after restrictions had really begun to tighten up last fall,

he had written to a worker who had published making a minor correction

in his calculations and adding some suggestions arising from his own

research. A week later his letter was returned completely censored,

stamped "Security-Violation." It was that evasive Gordon's fault. He

knew it, but he couldn't prove it. Collins suspected that the man was

not a top-notch researcher and so was in administration. Perhaps Gordon

was jealous of his own work.



Even the Journals were drying up. Endless innocuous papers recalculating

the values of harmless constants and other such nonsense were all that

was being published. They were hardly worth reading. Others were feeling

the throttling effects of security measures, and isolated, lone

researchers were slowing down, listless and anemic from the loss of

the life blood of science, the free interchange of information.



The present research job he was doing was coming slowly, but what

difference did it make? It would never be published. Probably it would

be filed with a Department of Defense code number as Research Report

DDNE-42 dash-dash-dash. And there it would remain, top-secret, guarded,

unread, useless. Somewhere in the desk drawers was the directive worded

in the stiff military manner describing the procedures for clearing

papers for publication. When he had first come here, he had tried that.



"Well, good, Collins," Gordon, the Division Administrator, had said,

"glad to check it over. Always happy when one of our men has something

for publication. Gives the Division a good name. I'll let you know, but

we have to be careful. Security you know."



Somehow he had never heard. The first time he had made a pest of himself

with Gordon who was polite, evasive, always plausible. Gordon,

Gordon--it was becoming an obsession with him he knew, but the man

appeared at every turn. He personified the system.



In the past months his work had seemed to clog up in details and slow

down. The early days of broad, rapid outlines and facile sketching in of

details were gone. Now the endless indignities, invasion of personal

rights and freedom, the hamstringing of his work, the feeling of being

cut off from the main currents of his field, filled him with despair,

anger, and frustration.



* * * * *



Suddenly he raised his head, slammed the notebook shut and switched off

the desk lamp. Not tonight. Tomorrow would be time enough to write out

this stuff. He needed a drink.



The hall was dark as he locked the door to his lab except at the far end

near the stairway where a patch of yellow light shone through an open

doorway. Mason, he thought, Allan Mason, the one guy at Fair Oaks

Nuclear Energy Laboratories who was always so damnedly cheerful, who

didn't seem to mind the security restrictions, and who was seen so often

with Gordon. As he walked rapidly past the open doorway, he caught a

flashing impression from the corner of his eye of Mason's tall figure

bent over his bench, his long legs wrapped around a lab stool, the

perpetual unlit pipe hanging from the corner of his mouth. Then as he

swung quickly toward the stairs, he heard Mason's cheerful hail.



"Hi, Milt, hold up a sec."



Reluctantly he paused at the head of the stairs scowling momentarily,

and then slowly turning and retraced his steps.



The lab was brightly lighted, and Mason stretched and smiled pleasantly.



"Come in, old man, I'm about ready to knock off for the evening. How

goes it?"



Collins mumbled an O.K. trying to keep the irritation out of his voice,

and Mason went on.



"Just finishing up some loose ends so I can get off to the Society

meeting on Monday. You going?"



Shaking his head Collins felt his dislike for this man growing. The

annual meeting of the North American Society of Theoretical Physicists.

He didn't even give it any thought any more. Maybe he could go, but it

didn't seem worth the effort. In the past he had tried to go to the

meetings, but somehow work, rush work, some change of emphasis had come

up on the project, and he had had to cancel his plans. He'd finally

given up, but with Mason these things seemed to come easily, and he

wondered why--



"That's too bad"--his voice droned pleasantly on, and Collins' eye

caught several botany texts in the book rack above Mason's desk. So, he

had time to read stuff outside of his field. His work was going well.

He had time for meetings and was allowed to go to them--the anger rose

slowly like a swelling bubble from the hard core of his stomach. Then he

realized that Mason had stopped talking and was looking at him.



"Milt, you look glum tonight. Is there-- Why not have supper with me,

and we'll take in the movie in the lounge?"



"I've eaten already." Collins was on his feet. He forced a, "Thanks

anyway. See you tomorrow. I'm--" and he was gone.



As he strode angerly across the quadrangle Mason's words and cheerful

attitude rankled in his mind. The gravel of the walk spurted from under

his shoes, and the night air was clear and cool. It was good at least to

feel something other than despair again, even anger.



But once in his study with its attached bedroom and bath that made up

his living quarters, he sank to the couch near his desk, all of the

fight gone. He needed a drink. Today all the irritations, tensions, and

suspicions of the past months seemed to close in on him. His work was

going badly. Perhaps seeing Mason had brought it to a head. The fifth of

bourbon in the bottom desk drawer was partly gone from the party last

month. He took a swallow neat, and the fire of the liquid burned and

clawed its way down his throat and spread with blossoming warmth in his

stomach.



Kicking off his shoes and loosening his tie he leaned back with the

bottle on the floor beside him.



Later in the evening when the early clarity of thought had left him and

his mind moved disjointedly in and out of seemingly brilliant, emotional

solutions to his problem, he knew he must have a showdown. Lying back on

the couch he drifted into sleep determined to have it out with Gordon in

the morning--resign if necessary.



* * * * *



The momentary pause of lighting his cigarette gave Collins a chance

to decide where to start, as he sat across from Gordon. The Division

Administrator was older with a heavy-jowled, close shaven face, and he

waited patiently for Collins to speak.



"Dr. Gordon, I am having a great deal of difficulty in making an

adjustment both in my work and in my personal relations here at Fair

Oaks, and last night I realized that I would have to talk to you about

it."



Gordon's face changed slightly, his eyebrows rising almost

imperceptibly.



"So, what ... how do you mean, Milt?"



Use of the first name--the familiar approach thought

Collins--administrative technique number blank blank dash blank.



"Dr. Gordon, these security measures we are under, the difficulty of

publishing, of getting to scientific meetings, the problem of getting

furloughs, lack of knowledge of what is going on in my own field, it's

just a little too much. It's personally irritating, but it greatly

hampers my work as well. Frankly, I'm against the entire security

program as it now stands. If it isn't stopped research will ... well,

simply be impossible. Free interchange of information is essential to--"

His fingers were gripping the arms of his chair.



"Yes, of course, Milt, but corny as it sounds there is a war on you

know. Oh, not a war with military weapons--yet, but a cold war of

science and engineering, a struggle for supremacy in many fields of

knowledge. If information of our work leaks out, gets to the enemy, we

might as well not do that work. We can't be too careful."



"I agree, but it goes too far." He leaned forward. "My private mail is

read, and on my last furlough I am certain I was watched from the time I

left the gates out there until I returned, and I don't like it. I can't

prove it, but-- That's getting to the point that life's not worth

while."



"Come now, Milt, don't you think you're taking this a little too

seriously? You're getting stale, overwrought. You need a fresh point of

view. Lots of our people feel as you do at one time or another, but most

of us learn to live with these necessary regulations, and do our work in

spite of them. Let me make a suggestion, relax, take a little time off,

develop a hobby. Why not do some reading in a field of science other

than your own. It's good for you. Several of the people here are doing

it. I do it, Carter, even Mason for instance--"



Collins could feel the anger rising in him again.



"Look, Gordon, I'm not going to mince words. I'm sick and tired of

this mess, and you might as well know it. You can have all your damn

relaxations and hobbies, or what have you. I want to do my work, and

if I can't do it here, I'm going somewhere where I can do it. In plain

English unless we can have an understanding right now--I resign."



It had come out, and Collins was breathing hard, but Gordon's expression

hardly changed as he looked over the tips of his joined fingers, while

the younger man stopped and crushed out his cigarette viciously in the

ash disposer on the arm of his chair. Gordon doodled on a small pad for

a moment, his eyes not meeting Collins'. Then he spoke slowly.



"I'm sorry you feel that way, Milt. I ... I'm afraid I cannot accept

your resignation. You see," he said softly, "none of us can leave Fair

Oaks--now."



Collins looked up, amazement and incredulity written on his face.



"What do you mean--can't leave? I can leave any time--"



Gordon slowly shook his head almost sadly. "No, only assistants,

technicians, maintenance people, and they are carefully watched or

restricted to this area. People like yourself, like me, we have

information, knowledge which cannot be let out of government hands at

this time. We're here probably for the 'duration'; maybe longer."



"But--this is barbarous. I--" the words clogged, jumbled as he tried to

get them out. His emotions ran from anger, to amazement, to indignation,

followed by a trickle of fear, and as he stared at Gordon, the fear

grew. He could scarcely hear Gordon's words--



"Take my advice--relax--and forget your fears--accept the restrictions

and go ahead--read in some other field--come in again when you've

thought it out." He was scarcely aware when Gordon slipped a bound

journal volume into his hands and walked with him to the door--and

closed it behind him.



* * * * *



Collins left Gordon's office in Administration moving slowly, one arm

hanging loosely by his side, the other clutching the book. The corridor

stretched ahead into B Wing with its laboratories flooded with the glow

of mid-morning sunshine, bright and unreal. His mind was dazed, his

thinking processes stopped in a kind of stunned unbelief. He could not

even quit now. An undercurrent of fear ran close to the surface of his

confused mind. It was the end of science, the end of all his work. All

of the stifling, strangling restrictions of security on his work, on

his private life, came whirling back as a monstrous, formless threat,

something unspeakably big and powerful and unbeatable against which he

could not fight.



To his right as he moved slowly down the hall the double doors of the

main library reading room were open with the stacks and study cubicles

beyond, silent and restful. He paused and then entered crossing into the

maze of the stacks through a grilled iron doorway. The important thing

now was not to meet anyone, not to have to speak or smile or think. It

was very important now to be alone and quiet.



He walked until he found an empty cubicle, the endless walls of books,

repositories of knowledge, silent and reproachful around him. Knowledge

and books such as these would soon be added to no longer. He slumped

into the chair and gazed at the tiny reading desk with its softly

glowing lamp and the small stack of volumes on the rack left by previous

users. Absently he stared for a long time at the volume Gordon had given

him as if seeing it for the first time. Then with a deliberate effort he

opened it and thumbed through slowly only half seeing its pages. The

Journal of Botanical Research.



The pages in the Journal were like a look through an open window.

Outside of classified projects in "harmless" fields of research the work

of science went on, papers were published, reputations were made,

freedom still existed. He remembered Gordon's sleek smile and advice

to relax and read in other fields. This stupid useless advice still

rankled. Of course, he probably was stale, but to read junk like this!



Silently and in his mind, he cursed the day he had studied physics,

better archeology or zoology, anything. Suddenly he stopped riffling the

pages and leaned forward, rapidly turning back to something that had

caught his eye. It was a three and one-half page paper on "The

Statistical Probability of Chromosome Crossover" written in neat

sections with several charts and references. It was by M. Mason.



Something clicked in Collins' mind--read the journals--Mason's unconcern

with security, the botany books on his desk the night before. It didn't

make sense, but it added up to something. Mason knew something and so

did Gordon. He half rose. He had to get to the bottom of it. Clutching

the bound Journal Collins turned and weaved through the stacks and out

of the library waving the protesting librarian aside and strode down the

corridor toward the laboratories.



* * * * *



The door to Mason's lab was partially open, and he looked up quizzically

from taking an instrument reading as Collins burst in.



"Mason, I--" he planked the bound volume of the Botanical Journal on

the lab bench beside the instrument ignoring Mason's wince as the

instrument needle quivered with the jar. "Did you write this?" His

finger jabbed at the open page.



Mason glanced at Collins, removed a pair of glasses from his white lab

coat pocket, and putting them on leaned forward and studied the page for

a moment.



"Yes. Not bad either though I shouldn't say it. I didn't know you were

interested in Botany." His voice was casual with a slight questioning

note.



Collins suddenly felt ridiculous. What was he accusing the man of? Mason

had a right to publish on anything he wanted to, still a muddled series

of half facts, incidents and suspicions chased through his mind.



Mason walked over to his desk and filling his pipe sat down thoughtfully

and leaned back motioning Collins into a nearby chair.



"I think I know what is on your mind, Milt. Maybe I can straighten this

out. Gordon told me a little while ago that you wanted to resign."



Collins stiffened. So, these two were working together.



"Milt, did you ever stop to think how lucky we are? Where can you get

better equipment, help, cooperation in the country than here?" Collins

leaned forward to speak, but Mason went on. "Oh, I know all the problems

of security and how it strangles work." He paused for a moment as though

trying to grasp the right words.



"Look, Milt, what's the basic problem? Why do security measures strangle

research? Isn't it a matter basically of a breakdown in the interchange

of ideas? Sure, and it has come about because there has been no method

of communication which would not get to and be used by our enemies. So,

like yourself, I'm forbidden to publish the results of my work here in

the journals. Why? Because those results are in my field of study, chain

reactions.



"I'm frustrated just as you have been and science suffers. What do I do?

I write articles in a field that isn't restricted, botany. It's a new

field of interest to me, a hobby if you like. The stuff is published and

gets wide distribution. Every decent library in the country gets it.

Every scientist all over the country can read the papers if he cares to.

Then the word gets around, by the scientific grapevine, with a little

judicious ear-bending. I get a reputation--in Botany.



"Now the botanists know that I am not a botanist. They understand what

I am doing. The word spreads, and they leave my stuff alone. The

physicists in my specialty know my name, and they get the word, and

pretty soon they are glancing over certain botany journals apparently

for relaxation. They read my papers. It's slow, but it works." Mason

leaned forward and struck a large stick match under the lab bench top.

Drawing several puffs through his pipe his eyes were on Collins'

confused face. Then he laid the pipe down.



"The enemy botanists may read the botany journals, sure, but the enemy

physicists don't. Their totalitarian training has made them inflexible

in their thinking, besides they have their hands full trying to keep up

in their own fields. The curse of specialization is a blessing to us.

When the enemy botanists read it, it makes sense, but it doesn't help

them much in their work--more or less innocuous." He waved toward the

botany texts on his desk. "It took me six months to learn enough about

it to do the job." As he spoke Mason untangled his legs and brought the

open journal over to his desk.



"All right, notice in my article I am writing on chromosomes--chains of

genes, and my field is--?"



"Chain reactions," Collins finished softly, "but--"



"The article itself is well disguised, but it's a parable. It's botany

on the surface, but it gets over enough chain-reaction theory to be good

physics, if you read it right. You see botany is what you might call my

code field."



The bright light of noon shimmered on the white buildings and green

lawns beyond the lab windows. Collins was silent and thoughtful.



"Well, that's about all. Gordon knows. He's in with us, but the

Government doesn't suspect--yet. Oh, they may catch on to us. Information

may leak out to the enemy. There's some chance, but when we're caught

we'll think of something else. Most of us believe it's worth the chance.

There's a risk in anything."





Suddenly all the pieces fell into place, and Collins' anger and confusion

melted away. In its place was a sense of relief and hope, hope for the

future. It wasn't the final answer, but it was a way to keep going. He

was not alone any longer. He had friends who understood, who had been

through what he had been through. It was a good feeling. He heard

Mason's voice again.



"Milt, why don't you do some library work? Botany's my code field. I

don't know what yours is, but you've got some catching up to do. There

may be some interesting stuff published already in your code field."



Collins did, and he developed his new interest enthusiastically. Gordon

had been right. He had been getting stale. Besides, astronomy was a

fascinating field, and suns with their revolving planets in some

respects are very like atomic systems, if you look at it that way.



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