The Bigger The Hat The Smaller The Herd

: The Fighting Edge

Combing Crooked Wash that afternoon Bob rode with a heavy and despondent

heart. It was with him while he and Dud jogged back to the ranch in the

darkness. He had failed again. Another man had trodden down the fears to

which he had afterward lightly confessed and had carried off the

situation with a high hand. His admiration put Hollister on a pedestal.

How had the blond puncher contrived to summon that reserve of audacity

/> which had so captivated the Utes? Why was it that of two men one had

stamina to go through regardless of the strain while another went to

pieces and made a spectacle of himself?



Bob noticed that both in his report to Harshaw and later in the story he

told at the Slash Lazy D bunkhouse, Dud shielded him completely. He gave

not even a hint that Dillon had weakened under pressure. The boy was

grateful beyond words, even while he was ashamed that he needed

protection.



At the bunkhouse Dud's story was a great success. He had a knack of

drawling out his climaxes with humorous effect.



"An' when I laid that red-hot skillet on the nearest area of

Rumpty-Tumpty's geography he ce'tainly went up into the roof like he'd

been fired out of a rocket. When he lit--gentlemen, when he lit he was

the most restless Ute in western Colorado. He milled around the corral

considerable. I got a kinda notion he'd sorta soured on the funny-boy

business. Anyhow, he didn't cotton to my style o' humor. Different with

old Colorow an' the others. They liked to 'a' hollered their fool haids

off at the gent I'd put the new Slash Lazy D brand on. Then they did one

o' them 'Wow-wow-wow' dances round Rumpty-Tumpty, who was still smokin'

like he'd set fire to the cabin."



Cowpunchers are a paradox. They have the wisdom of the ages, yet they are

only grown-up children. Now they filled the night with mirth. Hawks lay

down on his bunk and kicked his feet into the air joyfully. Reeves fell

upon Dud and beat him with profane gayety. Big Bill waltzed him over the

floor, regardless of his good-humored protest.



"Tell us some more, Dud," demanded the cook. "Did yore friend Rumpty put

hisse'f out by sittin' in a snowbank?"



"I don't rightly recollect. Me 'n' Bob here was elected to lead the grand

march an' we had to leave Rumpty-Tumpty be his own fire department. But I

did notice how tender he lowered himself to the back of his hawse when

they lit out in the mawnin'."



Bob saw that Hollister made the whole affair one huge joke. He did not

mention that there had been any chance of a tragic termination to the

adventure. Nor did the other punchers refer to that, though they knew the

strained relations between the whites and the Utes. Riding for a dogie

outfit was a hard life, but one could always get a laugh out of it

somehow. The philosophy of the range is to grin and bear it.



A few days later Bob rode into town with a pack-horse at heel. He was to

bring back some supplies for the ranch. Harshaw had chosen him to go

because he wanted to buy some things for himself. These would be charged

against the Slash Lazy D account at Platt & Fortner's store. Bob would

settle for them with the boss when his pay-check came due.



It was a warm sunny day with a touch of summer still in the air. The blue

stem and the bunch grass were dry. Sage and greasewood had taken on the

bare look of winter. But the pines were still green and the birds

singing.



It was an ordeal for Bob to face Bear Cat. June was better, he had heard.

But it was not his fault she had not died of the experience endured. He

could expect no friendliness in the town. The best he could hope for was

that it would let him alone.



He went straight to the office of Blister Haines. The justice took his

fat legs down from the desk and waved him to a chair.



"How're cases?" he asked.



Bob told his story without sparing himself.



Blister listened and made no comment to the end.



"You're takin' that Ute business too s-serious," he said. "Gettin'

s-scalped 's no picnic. You're entitled to feel some weak at the knees.

I've heard from Dud. He says you stood up fine."



"He told you--?"



"N-no particulars. T-trouble with you is you've got too much imagination.

From yore story I judge you weakened when the danger was over. You gotta

learn to keep up that red haid like I said. When you're scared or all in,

stretch yore grin another inch. You don't need to w-worry. You're doin'

all right."



Bob shook his head. Blister's view encouraged him, though he could not

agree with it.



"Keep yore eye on that Dud Hollister hombre," the justice went on. "He's

one sure enough go-getter."



"Yes," agreed Bob. "He's there every jump of the road. An' he didn't tell

on me either."



"You can tie to Dud," agreed Blister. "Here's the point, son. When you

g-get that sinkin' feelin' in yore tummy it's notice for you to get up on

yore hind laigs an' howl. Be a wolf for a change."



"But I can't. I seem to--to wilt all up."



"Son, you know the answer already. T-throw back yore haid an' remember

you got dominion."



Dillon shifted the conversation, embarrassed eyes on the floor.

"How's--Miss Tolliver?"



"G-gettin' well fast. On the porch yesterday. Everybody in town stopped

to say how g-glad they was to see her out. Been havin' the time of her

life, June has. Mollie's always right good to sick folks, but she

c-ce'tainly makes a pet of June."



"I'm glad. She's through with me, o' course, but I hope her friends look

out for that Jake Houck."



"You don't need to worry about him. He's learnt to keep hands off."



Bob was not quite satisfied to let the matter rest there. In spite of the

fact that he had made an outcast of himself he wanted to reinstate

himself with June.



Hesitantly Bob approached the subject. "Maybe I'd better send her word

I'm glad she come through all right."



Blister's eyes were stony. "Maybe you'd better not. What claim you got to

be remembered by that li'l' girl? You're outa her life, boy."



Bob winced. The harsh truth wounded his sensitive nature. She had been

his friend once. It hurt him to lose her wholly and completely.



He rose. "Well, I gotta go an' get some goods for the ranch, Mr. Haines,"

he said.



"I reckon you'd like to s-slide back easy an' have folks forget," Blister

said. "Natural enough. But it won't be thataway. You'll have to f-fight

like a bulldog to travel back along that trail to a good name. You ain't

really begun yet."



"See you again next time I get to town," Bob said.



He was sorry he had raised the point with Haines of a message to June.

That the justice should reject the idea so promptly and vigorously hurt

his pride and self-esteem.



At Platt & Fortner's he invested in a pair of spurs, a cheap saddle, and

a bridle. The cowboy is vain of his equipment. He would spend in those

days forty dollars for a saddle, ten for boots, twenty-five for a bridle

and silver plated bit, fifteen for spurs, and ten or twelve for a hat. He

owned his own horse and blankets, sometimes also a pack-animal. These

were used to carry him from one job to another. He usually rode the ranch

broncos on the range.



But even if he had been able to afford it Bob would not have bought

expensive articles. He did not make any claim about his ability to punch

cattle, and he knew instinctively that real riders would resent any

attempt on his part to swagger as they did. A remark dropped by Blister

came to mind.



"The b-bigger the hat the smaller the herd, son. Do all yore b-braggin'

with yore actions."



It is often a characteristic of weakness that it clings to strength. Bob

would have given much for the respect and friendship of these clear-eyed,

weather-beaten men. To know that he had forfeited these cut deep into his

soul. The clerk that waited on him at the store joked gayly with two

cowboys lounging on the counter, but he was very distantly polite to

Dillon. The citizens he met on the street looked at him with chill eyes.

A group of schoolboys whispered and pointed toward him.



Bob had walked out from Haines's office in a huff, but as he rode back to

the ranch he recognized the justice of his fat friend's decision. He had

forfeited the right to take any interest in June Tolliver. His nature was

to look always for the easiest way. He never wanted trouble with anybody.

Essentially he was peace-loving even to the point of being spiritless. To

try to slip back into people's good will by means of the less robust

virtues would be just like him.



Probably Blister was right when he had told him to be a wolf. For him,

anything was better than to be a sheep.



He clamped his teeth. He would show the Rio Blanco country whether he had

a chicken heart. He would beat back somehow so that they would have to

respect him whether they wanted to or not. If he made up his mind to it

he could be just as game as Dud Hollister.



He would go through or he would die trying.



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